My wife has 20/20 vision. I do not. Neither do our kids. For years the kids and I thought my wife was overly keen about cleaning things - the bathrooms, the kitchen, our hardwood floor - and then I realized one day that she's like this because she can see perfectly. We can't. She'll talk about how dirty a shower is sometimes, and I have literally no idea because I don't wear my glasses in the shower. Or, just as often, my wife will ask me 'How can you see through those glasses? They are so dirty!' No wonder I can't see the dust on our hardwood floor. :-\ Clear, focused vision is a gift, and I'm definitely missing it.
It got me wondering - how is my spiritual vision? Jesus said 'Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.' How do I see God? Is my picture of Him as it should be... do I see Him as He really is? Or is it distorted and out of focus? Do I let worries and cares distort my perspective of His loving heart for me? Are my expectations of His involvement in my life out of focus? What about how I see others and how I see my past? Is it through the lens of God's grace?
If you haven't noticed, I tend to ask myself a lot of questions. I think this stems from an experience I had at a Discipleship Training School in Texas back in late fall, 1990. I actually recalled this in a journal entry this past week...
Dec 3, 2021
“He has called us out of darkness into his marvellous light”. This was the verse that came to me this morning after reading my devotions. Every time I hear/read this verse it takes me back to ICT (Intensive Christian Training) school at LDM in Texas. This was ‘the verse’ the school counsellors believed God had spoken over our class. I was so keen and expectant to hear from God during that time.
For me the seminal week and day of that schooling was the last day of our Openness and Brokenness week. We were encouraged to be brutally open and honest with ourselves and the class about sin in our lives in the past and ask God to break our hearts over it - show us how He felt about that sin - and ask for his forgiveness. We were warned against pride in sharing.