Early Spring, 1990. The day worship changed for me.Unfortunately, I didn't write an actual journal entry about this event at the time. It happened before March 1990. I was 'busy.' I had an assignment to read I & II Samuel, I & II Kings, and I & II Chronicles, and I had a friend who had given me a cassette tape of 'new' worship music to check out. I thought 'why not kill two birds with one stone and do both at the same time?' I did exactly that on my top bunk in my dorm room at college late at night, with no expectation of anything.
The worship music I was listening to turned out to be the first Maranatha Praise Band album. It was quite a bit better than I was expecting. Songs like 'Jesus, Mighty God' and 'Lord I Life Your Name on High' played as I read, and I was actually enjoying myself. Things changed when I got to II Samuel 6:14 where David is bringing the Ark of the Lord into Jerusalem and dancing before the Lord 'with all his might.' The song that was playing on the cassette when I read that was 'The Lord Reigns.' At the end of the song the band sings 'Bless the Name of the Lord' repeatedly while the band continues to build and I had this picture in my mind of David dancing before the Lord with all his might, kicking up dust, sweating like crazy, out of breath.
I paused and wondered, 'What would it be like to worship God like that?'
I stopped reading and re-winded the song (I didn't have a CD player). I listened to the song again and read that passage again and asked myself the question: 'What would it be like to worship God, to dance before Him, with all my might??'
Worship changed for me that day. God opened my eyes to see a different perspective of what worship was. Before that, it was songs that we sang in church before a sermon. Some were fast, some were slow, and most of them talked about God. After that evening of reading, I slowly began to realize that worship is so much more than that. Its a connection between God and myself. It me recognizing who God is, and my place in His scheme of things. Its wonder, exuberance - so much more than just singing about God. Its getting my mind and my heart... and my strength involved.
I rarely get to that place of worship where David was. I'm not really sure I've even been in that zone that David was in. But I want to be one day. I want my love and exuberance for God be stronger than my fear of what people will think. And worship God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength.